we used to promise an entire lifetime together.
making plans to live together forever.
engagement. a wedding banquet.
a heaven we wud live in for the rest of our lives.
soo many. none achieved. all gone.
"we seldom meet", was e reason for cheating.
uhh? was it my fault dat we din meet dat often?
was i e one not wanting to meet evrytime we're free?
was i e one working my arse day and nite til we din have time to meet?
so now im e one who doesnt plan anyting for us all dis while huh?
so now all's my fault!!?? fuck u.
onli god noes wad im gg thru.
how could he??
after so much i gav, i did fer him..
was dis wad i deserved??
i giv up.
how wud it feel if e person u trust most cheated on u?
how wud it feel if dat person had made a damn big mistake u never thot he wud ever do?
yeh. sucks doesnt it.
hurts like hell.
i know.
juz feels like the world's ending.
feels like ders no one else der fer u nemor.
feels like u cnt trust anyone nemor.
yeh juz feels like shit.
dis tears r not gona stop falling.
no matter how i tried. it juz wun.
dis heart dis love is beginning to wither at evry thot of it.
e ending of dis love...
is juz e beginning of hatred.
mixed feelings.
duno wad's right or wrong anymor.
duno which are lies n which are truth anymor.
tings r jz so difficult for me right dis v moment.
i dun trust myself. i cnt trust anyone at all.
im jz living in dis world wid doubts.
n im not happy.
