i jus looovvvveee being single!!! free from worries!! free from shits from bfs!!!!! free from stoopid guys who dun hav feelings!!! free from pathetic fooken ugly men!!!!!!!! that's the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dying love
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e whether's been accomodating my mood these days. sadness. disappointments. blah blah.. my no-happy mood. boredom. anger. leads to crazy stressness. blargh!!
rain rain go away. come again anotha day. i wana get my hp today. so pls pls go away.
at home. doing nothing. updating shits. too cold to eat. too cold to bathe. too cold to go out. jus too cold for my damn mood.
hoping it wun rain tmrw. wana go to e beach. chilling. swimming. jus relaxing my mind, body and soul.
stoopid pple w stoopid selfishness. i hate dem all!
dying love
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afraid i may not be able to take it anymore. being lonely isnt fun. feeling like a fool isnt fun either. expecting someting dat dun happen aint fun too.
i jus hope he'd realise how it feels right nw. to be lonely. all alone. i feel like im single tho im attached. fark dis feeling.
dying love
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
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ate at seoul for the 1st time. w family and mantaro, my bf. amazed? even i was when my dad was giving him food, cooking them for him when he came. hmm.. well.. it was a good sign tho.
he had to go off to work at 10pm. so left halfway thru when we're jus walking ard cozway point. too bad. so now he's at work doing his job, i hope. trust him la hor.
today was the last day of attachments in 63C. unlike other last days i was very very sad to leave. it was difficult for me to leave 63C. patients, staffs, they made me love dis ward then before. was in tears a few hrs before shift ends. jus had to let it out. staffs were nice friendly and crazy pple. the reason why my afternoon shifts were always sooo alive. im gona miss thos. the fact dat my patient was not getting better but otherwise, made it even more difficult for me to leave. when told im leaving and not coming bck to work der, she said, "come and see me la some time.." my eye went all teary and i jus gave her a smile and said, "ok i will." dat was by far the most memorable moment throughout my days of attachments. i jus cudnt help it but to cry. softly in my heart. im gonna miss my patients who made a difference in my perception towards nursing. and im gonna miss dis moment. i'll jus pray that everyone gets better and that someday i'll be able to see them out of hospital smiling and saying hi whenever they see me. i love dis job. i love the pple involved. i love nursing.
dying love
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
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telah ku berikan semuanya kasih telah ku korbankan segalanya namun ku sendiri tak pernah mengerti apa yang engkau fikirkan apa yang engkau inginkan
selagi ada cinta di hatiku selagi ada rindu yang membara selagi ku mampu bertahan kasih ku terima segalanya walau hatiku merana
my relationship turning from bad to worst. but im stil hanging on. bcuz i stil love him. trying to change but if im e onli one trying... i wonder. wil it ever get better?
dying love
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
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things are gg bad. relationships turned sour. wads gg on these days??
dying love
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how come no one makes a big commotion abt de academic results dis semester??? my frens dey all jus simply kept quiet abt their academic results.. wad happen??
i jus checked mine. no supps. glad bout dat. but stil v puzzled abt de fact dat i totally forgot abt it and onli remembered today morning whch is like one fooken wk after its out. wth??!? why nobody said anyting abt their results. usually dey'd cal each other and ask each other abt their results and stuff liddat but dis time dat din happen at all.. hmm i wonder why???
lucky me my sis was arguing wid stoopid bf fer nothing and overheard her saying someting like exams skool and poly life and stuff and dat was wad actually woke me up early dis morning and realise i hv not checked my damn results!!
anyhoos!! i din see any remarks dat says supp beside any of my modules. tho its a bad result i must say im jus happy i moved up one notch despite being stressed up at de wrong time and not being able to study jus cuz of love. sheessh!! glad i made it. thnk you god!
dying love
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Friday, December 01, 2006
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i wana cry. i wana scream. i wana run. i jus wana let the world know how im feeling.
sad. angry. disappointed. all feelings possible when ur lonely. when ur dying to see someone but u jus cudnt. he jus doesnt have the time. work. its all cuz of work.
i've been trying to understand the situation these past two three days. but im starting to get agitated and angry.
he's not been giving me sms-es. not even been calling in to me. i've been sms-ing him but wid no replies. been calling but all i get is, "baby, im bz. cal u later ok." and dat ends it. not even one minute call these days. they always lasted less den a minute.
i miss him so much that at times i feel like crying. alone.
pls baby.. wil u pls see wad im gg thru? at least?
dying love
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i miss so many pple...
my friends.. my skool mates.. nurul.. i duno y but i do. my baby..
evryone... i miss u all so much.
dying love
thank you.
god.
mum & dad.
family.
friends. best friends.
e past..
dat made me who i am
today. and..
the present.
me.
ais. 21.
live to love
& to be loved.
v simple lady.
nvr asks for anything.
jus happiness.
life so far is just good.
