is he wad i really am looking for?
do i really want my life to be like dis?
today i'd be smiling and laughing wid him.
today he might be e most sweetest man on earth.
today he might hav poured me wid evry
little sweet nothings i always wanted.
but evrything wud be different e next day.
we wud be arguing e very next day.
he wud be ignoring me e next day.
i wud be jus nobody to him e next day.
why??
why is dis happening to me for one whole yr?
and why am i stil holding on tho it hurts so damn much?
why am i stil luving him so much to let go?
and why must he be coming bck to me
if he plans to continue hurting me again??
why??
yesterday i was fooled.
i was ignored.
i was played out again.
today i doubt he wud cal.
i doubt he wud even giv a damn abt me.
i want all dis hurtful tings to STOP.
pls!!
stop hurting me.
stop being so mean.
stop being so selfish.
stop being so unfair to me.
im ur gurl, for god's sake.
leave me alone if u plan to hurt me.
leave me alone if u plan to forget me.
leave me alone if u dun plan to care at all.
leave me pls..
im on e verge of giving up.
and wen i do..
i know u wud be grinning for u hav won.
i know u wud be smiling for u r free.
but..
im holding bck all my emotions ryte nw.
i fear to hav mistook u.
but im sure my woman instincts are ryte.
ur lying.
dying love