tht was a mistake i made in the past. and now im doing it again. *shit*
i've ruined evry surprise he had fer me. evry single tyme.
he had to work xtra hard. jus bcuz he cancelled and backed off from the thailand trip thing. fer me. cuz he knew i didnt like it. so tht's why the no replies and no answers. he was bz. too bz.
i felt so sorry. i shud hav trusted him a lil more. i shudnt hav all the stupid thots of him cheating me. but i cant help it. all dis has got to do wid the past.
*damn it*
i tink he really is very disappointed in me. i made him sad so many tymes.
and im stil hurting him.
aisyah! wake up! start realising & change before he decides to leave you! oh god.
dying love