today was suppose to be a happy one. at least i thot it wud.. but i ended up crying all e way to and from his place. we were suppose to go jogging together tonyte at my place but end up he went to a dinner w/o me and stayed out all nyte wid his frens, who are more important den me. i was rather disappointed he didnt ask me to come. i dunno if it was planned way before or he purposely planned it today. i dun wish to know either. actually, i dun wana know. cuz im sure its gonna hurt knowing.
oh well.. anyway, i went jogging all alone, thinking he wud rush down ryte after dinner to jog along wid me as planned but obviously dat can never happen. so yeah.. i guess im jus hoping for something dat can and wil never ever happen.
it is sad. but i chose dis path in my life so im living it altho it hurts so much inside me. i am praying. praying so hard. to hav ALLAH show me e ryte path and whether or not e path im walking on is e ryte one. if it is, den its fine with me. i'll continue its journey. but, if im on e wrong path, pls ALLAH, bring me home. AMIN..
dying love